Tuesday, May 11, 2010

A stressful time.

I have noticed that stress will always be a part of life, and thus you need to have good coping skills. Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones or not, but I find myself not myself lately. I find myself randomly wanting to sit down and just cry because things are so crazy right now.

So let me fill you in on what is making my life so crazy right now.

1) Work is getting kinda stressful. I do love my job, but some of the kids are just getting to me. Yesterday I had kids 2 cut their shirts with safety scissors, this still baffles me when I am unable to cut paper with them and they can cut fabric. There has been a lot of construction going on at our center. I know that everything is gonna look awesome when it's done, however this has caused a lot of chaos and disruption in the classroom. Also, we are only down to 2 teachers. One of the teachers is on maternity leave and the other who is about 22 weeks is on bed rest. Lucky for us the numbers have been low enough that we have been able to cope, but again it causes some chaos.

2)Not that this is really crazy, but I feel like a punching bag. Kyle has been beating up on my insides, and this usually happens when I am ready to go to bed. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that my little boy is moving around but come on let mommy rest. I guess he feels that he needs to get me ready for when he is here, but I need all the rest I can get now! I think being sleep deprived is also making my hormones go crazy, in which makes me more emotional.
2.2)Braxton Hicks...although they haven't been painful they are uncomfortable. I know it's my body's way to get ready for labor.
2.3)I am always worried about Kyle. For the last 3 months almost I hadn't put on anyway weight. And I had only gained a total of 7 lbs. My doctors aren't really worried right now because the fundal height is right on track, however if that changes then they will do another ultrasound to check. I am just worried that I am gonna have a really small baby. And don't get me wrong I am always eating! I also need to find a doctor for Kyle, but I am not sure where to start.

3)Buster...A few weeks ago Buster had a seizure after going for a walk. We rushed him to the emergency vet, but there wasn't much they could tell us without getting like $500.00 from us. He has still been having issues, even had another major seizure last night. He is also losing bladder control, what this means is I am always having to clean up after him. It usually happens when he gets excited, and leaves trail behind. Yeah I know TMI.
This is really stressing out Vincent. Buster is his best friend, and he can't live knowing he didn't give it his all. There is a chance that if we can get him to Cincinnati that he has a chance at a longer life. This means meeting Vincent's ex-wife at a 1/2 way point and dropping of the dog. She works for a really good vet who said that they would do a ct scan for free and all services after that would be 1/2 off. My fear is that he won't survive the trip out there because of all the stress it would be causing, and also the money issue.

4)My cat has gone missing! Yes little Gaston has gone missing. Last night he got out of the house and hasn't been seen since. When I came home from work I saw some tuffs of fur by the back door. This is a tall tale sign that he was in some kind of fight, and he may be injured. We also live next to a very busy road and I am hoping he didn't cross the street, and that he is okay

Well it's getting late and I need to get ready for bed, I have to be up at 5:00 to take Vincent to work 45 mins away.

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